Disclaimer: I am not 100%. I’m not even halfway to 100%. Half my face is immovable (Bell’s Palsy), my right eye looks like it came straight out of Satan’s head, I still have one of my two ear infections, my gums are finally starting to heal, and I have to take frequent breaks when I’m doing things because my energy is almost non-existent.
Not that I’m letting any of that stop me, of course.
I’ve been out of things for a little over a week, and I just can’t do it anymore. Creatively I was starting to feel like I was going to burst, and as I watched all the tasks (both author and personal) pile up, I was slowly being driven insane. See, I am not a procrastinator. I start getting nervous twitches whenever I think I may not get everything done by the end of the day.
I’m very driven, yes, and that’s probably why I had to take a brief break to begin with: I kept ignoring the signs my body was trying to give me. I thought I could push myself just a bit further, get just one more story done. Repeat. Those things begin to add up. In my case, they nearly killed me.
I learned my lesson. I really did. This was a big wake-up call concerning my work-ethic, and to a greater degree my health. It all boils down to more writing, less socializing, and more focusing on quality and not quantity.
Because writing is my life. No, not just erotica, although that is definitely fun to write. Writing. All genres. On my Patreon it says, “Alexa Nichols is creating romance, fantasy, sci-fi, dystopian, horror, and erotic novels,” and it’s not lying. I write all of that. All the time. And my mind continually crafts stories I put on the back burner concerning them. Why do I have so many stories written and unpublished? Because I write like a fiend. I have a passion for my work, my Art. Even if I didn’t sell a single eBook, audiobook, or paperback, I would still do this just as fervently as I do now.
Because I can’t help it.
I will be writing until the day I die.
Hopefully, you have something you feel just as passionate about, something that keeps you sane and warm and stable when the rest of the world seems to constantly try and do the opposite. Something that’s not only a part of you, but bigger than you.
If you don’t, why not? 🤔
“Some of the History Channel’s documentaries involve docudrama segments and are highly speculative – but there seems, on the part of the producers, to be a real determination to get at the history behind our past – not the sex, which is left to drama shows and entertainment channels.”
– Nigel Hamilton