Basically, my entire day has been spent alternating between author work and reading, with a small amount of Zelda 2 playing mixed in for good measure. If it wasn’t for Anne, who spent the day (and is spending the night) with me, I would be in a writing fugue, completely unresponsive to anything save a quick spider monkey on my brother when he got home from work (don’t judge me for my hobbies).
Anne keeps me grounded though, because we have such good conversation and just vibe so well together that we can waste hours talking about absolutely nothing – which prevents me from hermiting into my writing cave. Since we’re both sick (I’m at about 80%, she’s at about 25%) we can hang out and not worry about infecting one another.
Which is the only reason me and Rebecca haven’t been together much these past few weeks.
To be honest, that’s been kind of bugging me, but not for the reason you may think. We do text and occasionally Skype, but it’s not the same thing, and the really bad part is I can get so immersed in my writing that missing her doesn’t affect me as much as it should – or at least as much as I think it should.
I don’t know. It’s honestly something I haven’t thought about much because – wait for it – I’ve been so wrapped up in my author life. If I’m being brutally honest with myself, I’ve been wondering lately if I even need a relationship outside of my brother and friends. I dunno. I’d say I’ll think about it, but the reality is after this entry I’m watching Yogi Bear with Anne and going right back to author stuff for a bit before I hit the bed. The truth is, I’m in love with being an author, and as I sense myself getting better and more at ease with my craft it’s fueling my desire to do it more – at the sacrifice of my personal relationships. I feel like I have to force myself to reach out to my friends sometimes, and I know it’s not healthy, but it feels normal to be that way.
But I know it’s not…
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Until tomorrow, my loves.