R.I.P. God 😭

Dear Diary,

Give me your hand and let me take you back in time about a week. I want to show you how God died, and what killed it. It’s going to be a strange, painful journey, so brace yourself. It forever changed me, and it may well do the same to you. So, brace. And read on…

I had just finished working for the day. I’d written an obscene amount of verbiage, backed everything up like the good writer I am (😂 sorry, couldn’t keep a straight face), and settled back to play some Skyrim as I usually do after a long, hard day of digital ink-slinging.

I rebooted my computer to flush my memory.

I booted up Skyrim.

My laptop froze.

Like, dead froze. Like, nothing at all worked. I had to hard power that motherfucker off, wait for a bit, then power it back on. Only it didn’t get to Windows 10; instead, it went to a boot failure screen that I’ve never seen before. I immediately pulled out my smartphone and started Googling like a madwoman, trying to figure out what the hell happened, and followed the most reputable instructions I could find (a Microsoft employee from their website) to alleviate the issue.

Long story short: my hard drive flat out died. D-E-D. Dead.

This is how God died. (I named my laptop God when I first got it. My new tower – my first tower ever – is named Babel) Rest in peace, my beloved. Your life was over too soon. I was not ready.

In case you can’t tell, it’s been an interesting couple of weeks over here in the #Alexaverse.

On the writing side of things, things are a bit lighter, and I have a ton of news. Erotic Urban Legends: Broken Wings is available for August 1, 2019 preorder. The paperback is available for purchase now, and the audiobook version is currently being recorded by one of my favorite narrators: Robyn Isaacs (She’s the one who narrated Erotic Urban Legends: The Patchwork Girl). Also, the audiobook version of The Secret Life of Miel has been finalized, and we’re just waiting for Audible to approve it. And finally, the audiobook version of Girl Fight is complete! The narrator, the incomparable Sierra Kline, did an amazing job on it – all we’re waiting for now is Audible to approve the final product so it can go out for sale!

So much to be excited for. 🤗

Something not to be excited for? The current part of Exitium Mundi I’m writing. It’s titled Sera, and it’s getting harder and harder to finish. I mean, I’ve cranked out about 10,000 words these past four days, and while that looks good in print… see, part of the problem is that Sera is suicidal, and tends to cut herself. I based her off someone I knew in real life, someone I loved very dearly that isn’t with us anymore. The way Sera’s story ends is kind of dark, with a sliver of light interwoven within.

I’m not gonna lie: it’s hard as fuck to write, and I haven’t quite figured out how I want to wrap it up. Maybe I made it too personal. I keep going back and forth with so many psychological dynamics that I feel like I just need to get drunk and have at it. I dunno.

I remember now why drinking appealed to me so much. 😅 It seems to be the only time my mind calms, the only time I can truly relax and write things I normally wouldn’t be able to. I’m weird, I know, but you guys love me – you wouldn’t be reading this if you didn’t.

And I really, truly, and deeply appreciate that. Thank you. 💖

#Alexa

 

“Hunger and sex still dominate the primitive mammalian side of human existence, but at the present time it looks as if humanity were within sight of their satisfaction. Permanent plenty, no longer a Utopian dream, awaits the arrival of permanent peace.”

– John Desmond Bernal

 

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