So I met this girl. I’ve known of her for a while, actually, but I didn’t actually get to meet her until a few weeks ago. She’s a friend of several of my friends, and somehow we just never managed to meet. She’s – well – to be frank, she’s really amazing. And hot as hell.

Her name is Rebecca, and for the first time in my life, I think I’ve really fallen for a girl.

And therein lies the problem: I’m coming to develop feelings for her, but there are still things she doesn’t know about me that maybe she should. I mean, we’ve gotten to know each other fairly well over these past few weeks, but, for example, she doesn’t know I’m an erotica author, and I’m not quite sure how to break that to her. I mean, what do you say: “Hey, I really like you, I mean really really like you, and by the way, I write smut.” I just can’t see a scenario in my head where that conversation turns out good.

I don’t know. Maybe I’m over-analyzing things. I do that a lot. I have a lot to think about.

And yes, I’m pulling no punches with my diary (like I ever have), so whatever happens, I’m writing it down. After all, I made a promise to always be candid, and if it’s one thing I am, it’s a keeper of my promises.

After all, what’s the point of having a diary if you can’t pour out your soul?

Full disclosure: I’m drinking. And listening to the Empire soundtrack (“Heavy” at the moment – a song I can completely relate to). So expect some retarded Tweets and posts. 😉 …




  1. Richie G on 5th November 2016 at 8:58 am

    Hi Alexa, congratulations on falling for someone. In my experience, women who are either gay or bisexual are more open and liberal minded than the average. Except for the fact that you reside in a very conservative state so the average is more conservative than most, I would safely bet this girl will be just fine with your sexy writing. If you told her you were a porn star, I think that might be a problem since you’re having sex with other people. But you’re only writing about sex.. not performing it. And finally, since I’m Kinky Richie it would be expected of me to say this on behalf of all the guys out there. Can we watch? lol

    • Alexa Nichols on 5th November 2016 at 7:26 pm

      You are completely right. She’s a little on the conservative side, but not too badly. She definitely has a freaky side – trust me! 😄

      And as far as watching goes – I’ll see what I can talk her in to! 😈

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